You gotta love Joan Collins

‘If you eat junk, you look like junk. People say, “It’s not my fault, it’s my glands”. It’s not, it is greed.’ - Joan Collins

Can't stop progress....

Progress in the last week..... drinking loads of water. Big deal you may say but in recent months ie 12 months some days I would be lucky to drink any water AT ALL, which is just bad bad bad. so for the last few weeks I have made sure that I am drinking at least 1.5 litres a day. It is making me feel much better generally BUT my biggest progress which I will post more about later this week is that I have not had ANY diet coke for almost a month!!!! I will fill you more in later this week

Grateful

I feel so guilty being in the doldrums when so so so many people in this city are really suffering, I mean really suffering. Some good friends of ours whose house flooded the entire bottom floor had just finished renovating their house and it was on the market to sell as they have bought a larger house elsewhere. Their house was gorgeous and sold within days but the settlement was not due to happen until march, so its needless to say the buyers have now backed out and they will now have to forfeit settlement on their new home as well as there is no way they can afford 2 mortgages, then not to mention that although they think they have the right insurance it will take ages to fix and replace what has been damaged and their house will be almost unsellable for sometime to come due to being in the flooding zone. Some property insiders say it will take maybe up to 10 years for real estate to recover in the areas that affected - 10 years!!!

So today I am grateful for my lovely home and all that I have in it, plus I make a solemn vow today I will never dread housework again.....

I must heart me

Yes, yes it has been too long I know but I went to a very bad place in november/december and just as I was starting to emerge from the black hole I was in , mother nature decided she wanted to flex her muscles and rained terror on the streets of Brisbane. I live in inner city Brisbane close to our normally nice river but thank god our house was spared of the havoc it played on so many others that surround us and also those who live on the west side. A few friends and their parents were not so lucky and a few lost everything except for a few treasured possessions.

Even sadder alot of people just outside of Brisbane lost their lives and have left devastated families behind. I pray for them. It has inspired me to start afresh and start to want to live a life that alot of people in these last few weeks fought tooth and nail to keep alive for themselves and their families.

Speaking of families I lost yet another potential little one in late November which in yet another crap kick in the (ample) guts it was the same week I would have been due to give birth had I not had an ectopic pregnancy in april. life sucks when shit like that happens and then you realise it is even more shit when you are still fat and out of shape and have spent so many $$ on frigging weight watchers and gym memberships.....damn damn damn. I know I have to do this otherwise I will die from it - pure and simple