Weigh in Wednesday

Lost 0.3kgs which is over 2 weeks which is not so great but I must keep going. The meeting was interesting today as they started explaining this new ProPoints system they will be converting to I was so surprised that so many people were upset about it. People were upset about having to buy all new books and that their old recipe books were becoming obsolete, the leader explained that they could use the old recipe books but convert the old points to the new ones via the internet etc but people were still not happy, especially over the points calculators - I mean seriously is it going to kill you to fork out an extra $20 for a new one, given as member you will be given all new folders and books with cutting edge information and food science included in them to start this new system. People were moaning about having to re-read and re-learn everything from scratch, um really is it a major problem if it re-kickstarts your weight loss again??

Some people I guess are never happy about change but I for one am looking forward to it as I have not exactly flourished under this current system.

The thing I don't get is that everyone sitting in that WW room was there because they were overweight and were unhappy about it so why bitch and moan about something that is going to help you get past what you seem to be doing that is making you , well, fat???

bring it on I say!

My 'Other' life has taken over this week....

Unfortunately I will have to skip my weigh in this week as I run an online business where I sew and hand make baby and kids clothes and sleepwear and I have a big market day on Saturday to kick off the festive season so I have been madly sewing and have been chained to my machine. apologies!

On the upside I have discovered more about this ProPoints new scheme for WW. Check out the link below as it is being launched in the UK this Sunday so surely Australia cannot be far behind!!! I hope so as apparently ALL fruit and Veg apart from potatoes will be 0 points!! yeay.

http://www.dailymail.co.uk/femail/article-1326447/Weight-Watchers-Pro-Points-plan-A-new-approach-dieting-success.html

Exciting WW news

I just read an article in the UK's Daily Mail online newpaper about Weight Watchers starting a totally new system to their 'points' program called 'ProPoints'. Sounds interesting and I hope they bring to Australia as apparently it will be based on 'new scientific information'.

All fruit and vegetables will have no points as WW realised that people were swapping their fruit points for low fat choc treats which sounds ridiculous but I have to admit that I am guilty of doing that on occasion, sad i know and probably why I have only been losing only very small amounts each week lately. booooo. bring on the new system and read about it here.

Never truer words spoken....

‘If you eat junk, you look like junk. People say, “It’s not my fault, it’s my glands”. It’s not, it is greed.’ - Joan Collins

Also I had WW weigh in this morning down 0.1kgs. not bad considering I had a big weekend at the wedding and I had no bonus points up my sleeve. I have no special ocassions coming up and the litle peach is fully healthy again so time to kick in my training plan.

Can anyone recommend a good exercise blog widget? If not why not join in on the hugs on the blog hop below

ps whoever un-followed me this week I wish you well (grrrrr)

Changes....

God this weight loss gig is damn exhausting...when it is all you think about and yet still dont see the changes you want it is hard to stay motivated.

How crazy is it when this one thing is the first thing you think of when you wake up and the last thing you think of at night and yet you still struggle to get hold of it. I try to plan and be organised but things pop up that have to take priority and exercise takes a back seat or you have to grab something to eat which is not to best choice but it is the easiest and tastiest one.

damn damn damn but I will not give up.... I will not

ho hum Weigh in Thursday

ho hum indeed I lost 0.3kgs. god at this rate I will lose my 22kgs by 2023! shite.

I am pleased though that I did lose something as my 6 day a week exercise plan/commitment went out the window when my little peach got sick... I don't mind though as I suppose that is what being a mum is all about isn't it?

There is nothing lovelier in the world than your little person asking you to just sit by their bed and hold their hand as it makes their tummies hurt less..... I just need to re-focus come Monday. My hubbie and I are heading up the coast this weekend for an old friends wedding and I am a bit scared as I have no bonus points up my sleeve and there is a rehearsal dinner friday night and then the big day saturday. bllllimey..

I am interested in hearing of any tactics you may have used in the past???

No weigh in wednesday today

Little peach is still unwell and did not go to kindy today so I was unable to make my meeting but my mum is babysitting tomorrow morning so I can quickly scoot over and weigh myself. I made a solemn promise to myself when I signed up that I would NOT miss a single weekly weigh in for what ever reason. WW is really quite expensive when you think about it and I am not paying all of $60 a month to give it away, plus I think if you miss one it is too easy to get slack and miss another and then just be too embarrassed to go back because you have put on weight back on. Well at least that is what I have done in the past.

ALSO arrrggggggg.....I rang the account helpline to change my credit card details and the lovely man who was helping me kept me waiting on the line as I had so many log in names attached to my address that he struggled to find the current one. He pointed out that I had joined in 2007, 2008, 2009 and TWICE in 2010 all under different sign in names......mate could you have made me feel any worse. He was very nice though and said it took him 7 joins to finally get it for good. ho hum I hope I lose some weight as I have not bee tracking as much as I should.....

Merci Beaucoup

I received my first blog award - yeay - from the lovely Katie at Finding the thin within. Katie was one of the first blogs I came across and really inspired me to start my own, so merci beaucoup Katie!

The Versatile Blogger
1. Capable of doing many things competently.
2. Having varied uses or serving many functions
3. Variable or inconstant; changeable: a versatile temperament.
4. Capable of moving freely in all directions

As for the rules of this blog award they are as follows:
1. Thank the person who gave you the award
2. Share seven things about yourself.
3. Nominate 15 newly discovered blogs.
4. Let your nominees know about their award.

Seven (random) things about myself

1. I love to sew

2.I run an online baby and children's wear business which I sew myself in the days my daughter goes to kindy

3. I have 6 brothers

4. I am married to a dashing danish man

5. I used to smoke cigarettes - filthy!

6. I love swimming in the ocean but I have not done it in years

7. I have not worn a sleeveless top in public in about 8 years

I will only nominate 5 blogs to keep it exclusive

1. suger coat it I love Mel's blog as she is such a happy person and just seems to have a positive spin to everything and she is truly a versatile blogger as one day she will be posting about her diet, the next about her job,the next about her yearning to become a mum, then most of all she writes about her hubby in a really funny sweet way! ( which is rare these days I think!)
2. The scales say what Ali's blog was the second blog I came across and really inspired me to start my own as she seemed to really get alot out of blogging out her thoughts.
3. Revealing the real me Andrea is a fellow Brisbane-ite so I like to read a local blog.
4. Good Golly Miss Holly I love Holly's blog as she is very funny and has got a real potty mouth just like me
5. Diminishing Lucy This was the very first weight loss blog I came across. I loved it and still do as Lucy is a real life inspiration to me and always gives just the best advice!

arrghhh poor peach is still sick

We had a pretty hectic weekend and I think the little munchkin over did it....so I am busy mopping floors of all sickness....ewwww hate vomit.

Weigh in (belated) Friday

Blimey... bit of a week here at eeni meeni HQ. The poor little peach has been sick all week so not much time for blogging or anything else due to our shocking Qld weather and living in a flood area has left our poor house a little soaked but on the upside I think I have burned alot of calories from cleaning up soggy mess!!!

I quickly dashed over to WW this morning and I lost 0.6kgs! totally thrilled as I had a bad weekend but got back on track this week but unfortunately not alot of gym visits due to the little peach being sick and wanting her mum around 24/7.

One small step for (wo)man kind...

well well well.... after reading a few blog posts late last night and this morning I was feeling a bit down in the dumps about my failure to conceive and carry child number 2. I realised that in late October 2 years ago hubbie and I decided to add to our family thinking we were being sensible and waiting for a good amount of time and more financially stable after having number 1 child.

Wrong. 2 years 3 miscarriages and 1 ectopic pregnancy later still no number 2 child and it made me feel reallllly shitty as especially in a few weeks will come the due date of what my ectopic pregnancy should have been. should have been. love this phrase....Not

You know what I did??? I put on my gym kit and running shoes and went to the gym! In the old days I would have said stuff house/work and sat on the couch eating biscuits watching re-runs of some crap reality show. I went to the gym and went through my program of cardio and weights and then at the end I got on the treadmill again and starting running and got to 2km and stopped as I thought I was going to die!! I hopped off the treadmill and burst into tears into my towel (no one was around and the gym is tiny!) then I quickly stretched and went to my car where I burst into tears again. hot angry tears. angry at so many things. things I cannot change. things I can and wished I had changed 2 years ago when I had the chance.

I know there are more important things in life and I am so so so lucky to already have one cute cherub of a child who is literally the sunshine of my and my husbands life. Who when I had some very dark days in march/april this year she was only reason for me to get out of bed every day, the only reason a smile was brought back to my face. I am so fortunate I know that and I do cherish every day.

The morale of this story is that it only takes one small step in a different direction to change your life and stop what you were doing previously when you come to bumps in the road, then and only then, will it (hopefully) change your life for the better.

It's official I am giving up the booze....

Yet another booze filled day yesterday with a good friends 40th birthday lunch party!! I did a double gym workout on friday and had 10 bonus points saved and thankfully it was a roasted pig on a spit and serve yourself lunch buffet, so I had the pork meat as a set points of 4 and then filled the rest of plate with all salad - no bread, no creamy pasta/potato/gravy - just salad - unheard of for me. To add the celebrations when our dear friend was making a thank you speech for everyone he got down on one knee and proposed to his girlfriend in front of us all so of course it was a double celebration and the champagne came out!!!!

but today I was not so good and it has left me thinking that I cannot continue to 'earn' extra points to waste on booze on the weekends as in the end it will not really get me where I need to be....

To train or not to train??

I have joined a gym today! When I lived in the UK I was a member of gym called Holmes Place and boy was it plush! (photos above) Had computerised machines with built in TVs, ipod docks, the weight machines were computerised so all you had to do was insert a chip card with all you details on it and it would automatically adjust the weight AND seat to your program! Then after the workout you had walk in plunge pools and water massages....oh those were the days.

Due to living on one income flashy gyms are a thing of the past and lets face it who the heck has the time to float around in plunge pools anyway so I have joined a no frills gym 2 minutes from my house for the princely sum of $60 a month. It is teeny tiny and only a few machines but the weights look new and clean so that is the main thing. Another gym I looked at joining a little while ago who shall remain nameless (Fitness First - ok I am not nice) but the weights area was filthy and smelly and dont even get me started on the change and shower rooms!!

I currently mapping out my plan of attack in the next day or so as I have decided to start training, yes I said, training - no more light exercise for me - 6 days a week

Plan it or wing it?

Lately I have got off track with my planning of meals and then tracking them online via WW and this goes for my exercise too. I feel pleased that I am making progress and since I started 5 weeks ago I have lost weight consistently every week just in very, very, teeny amounts. I know it is a step in the right direction rather than the other way but I feel now I reallllllly have to amp it up and start exercising 6 days a week and plan meals for 7 days to start getting some pretty ambitious goals I have in mind before Christmas day rolls around.

If you are a planner please I would appreciate any tips you may have? Or even if you are winger how do you make it work for you??

or just join on the blog hop below!

Weigh in Wednesday yippppeeeee

Unbelieveable!! I actually lost 0.3!!!! I am in shock as I really did think I would have gained at least 0.5, so I am pleased. Wish I had lost more by this stage of following WW but hell it is better than nothing!!

oh no! The wheels have come off!

Saturday night hens party got a bit out of control to say the least...I think at one point during the festivities I became airborne and my wheels fell off also.....but i think (fingers crossed) with the exercise I did before the weekend and monday and today I should not have gained, I hope. very nervous about it...

I must stay on track....I must stay on track

I have a hens party today. It is a double whammy of a long lunch and then an evening party. yikes. two course lunch and then drinks,dancing and karaoke back at the hens house into the wee hours. double yikes. I am got up early this morning and the three of us went for a bike ride so I am hoping I have earned about 8 points which is about 3 drinks worth but better than nothing I say!

Food for thought....

I visited a friend today who recently had a baby. 7 weeks ago in fact and I said to her you look great, way to go! She replied with oh yeah I went back to pilates last night and I weighed myself there and I am still 2 kgs over what I was before I got pregnant but I am in no rush to get back to exercising to get rid of it!!! 2 KILOS and she was deadly serious!! here I am with almost 20 kilos still on me 3 years later... blimey.

This treasured friend sadly, who after a pretty shitty childhood suffers with bouts of anxiety and down moods (not diagnosed depression but pretty close). It got me thinking though on why some of us chose to eat our emotions and bad moods and why some of us choose not to??

I have posted about this before but why does someone like me who has experienced a pretty charmed life vs someone who had a shitty one abuse their body and their life with food? This is what I do and I dont know why?

I feel happy

Straight after my post yesterday I got up and cleaned out our pantry of all snacks and biscuits (it was not much anyway).

My big problem is that I think I feel hungry and have a low point snack thinking I am still within my daily points range but then at the end of the day I add up all my low point snacks and realise it adds up to too many points and I end up going over. I buy biscuits or bake them thinking they are for my little one and husband but in reality I eat probably 80% of them and lets face it I should not be feeding them to my child either on a regular basis.

what is something in your pantry that you know should not be there? Please join me on the blog hop below! It is fun

Weigh in Wednesday, just shoot me!

I have only myself to blame (oh maybe the weather too - just kidding) Dismal effort of 0.1kgs lost this week! Yes only 100grams. I am super duper annoyed at myself as it was week 4 this week in my WW book and I had hoped to get to 5% by now. shit shit shit. I was looking at the WW messages boards last night and joined a 12 week challenge as THIS WEEK is 12 weeks until Christmas! yikes. shit yikes I just CANNOT handle being fat this christmas again.

ps sorry about the swearing....

Rain go away

God on rainy days does anyone else just want to eat and eat and eat???

I have been trying really hard to identify reasons on why I overeat - comfort, boredom, loneliness,sadness?

However I have days I have discovered where I am quite content with my world but I just want to eat biscuits and drink tea or have a bit of chocolate because it tastes BLOODY NICE! Some days I want to go thru the maccas drive thru and buy a cheeky cheeseburger meal because the 0 point soup awaiting me at home in just not appealing! So what do I do in these situations???? Just wanting to eat something because it tastes nice not because I am bored or upset???

I plan and I plan to keep myself on track but what happens when you just simply want to eat something else? Obviously I dont because I realise I will feel shit after it and maccas is bad for you and makes you FAT! I tell myself this on a regular basis.

Cycle away the blues....

After not having the best day on Friday and with this crap weather in QLD all week I was desperate to get out and do something as I have not been loving the at home workouts and there is no way I was doing them with hubbie in the house laughing at me no doubt so luckily for us it has been not raining both mornings on the weekend so we have got out for a cycle down to the river and back! yeay! I worked out that cycling for 60 minutes hard earns you 9.5 points!! I will not use them at the moment as I trying to get some big numbers for the weigh in this week but it is good to know I can earn that much as bonus points as I have some big events coming up in October and I do not want to derail myself and if I plan ahead and not go too crazy with the alco I should manage to still lose weight!

ps how hilarious is the above bike. of course it was a cyclist in Japan. The japanese are so kooky! I love it though.

I beat the mean blues...

Had bad day yesterday as I was feeling very sorry for myself. Think it may have been hormonal but I was feeling very angry at myself for getting myself this overweight when I have lead a seemingly charm filled life when so many others have not. I have a guilty secret...yes I am a fan of this show...Workout on foxtel. It is a reality show that follows a personal training studio which is owned and run by a lady called Jackie Warner. At first I thought this show was ridiculous and refused to watch it but after a few minutes I was hooked! I have heard she has another show called Thintervention.. crikey I could be in trouble

On Thursday nights show they had a retreat weekend away with some of their clients who are hugely overweight and they had some counselling sessions. Most of the people there have had such hard lives and it made me feel annoyed that I have so such reasons for being overweight if you know what I mean. I know it sounds silly but I feel that way. I have had a really rough few years in terms of losing several babies but alot of people go through that and dont become obese like me....mmmn. something to think about I guess.

On the upside I did not overeat and stuck to my points all day! I just kept telling myself that chocolate is not going to make me feel better just worse! I feel much better today though and I am proud of myself for not saying 'stuff it and eating a barrel of chocolate or biscuits !' Another step in the right direction - tick!

A new perspective

Recently I came across a lovely blog that I posted about here.

Her leader at weight watchers said the below

"As one of my leaders used to remind us, the time is going to go by anyway, so who cares how long it takes? Wouldn't you rather spend that time at least making steps in the right direction? Because where will you be in 4 years if you *don't* start making those changes? How much more of your life are you willing to lose? How much more of your precious life will you allow to slip by, continuing to be unhappy and unhealthy?"

This comment really has helped me in the last week as it has changed my perspective and whole attitude to losing weight as it really is so true, the time will pass regardless,spring will turn into summer, then into autumn.....do i really want to spend that time being miserable and fat???

Some days I cannot believe it is almost 4 years since my little peach was born and 4 years I have been carrying close to 20 kilos of extra weight. No bleedin' wonder I am so tired all the time! I only has a small loss this week but as the above states it is all about taking steps in the right direction and I certainly do not want to spend another 4 years not living life but merely existing and being invisible which is how I feel most days.

Weigh in Wednesday

Weight loss this week was 0.3. grrrrr. I know I should be happy with it at least being a loss and not a gain but I had NO alcohol over the weekend - not so much as a glass of wine, plus I exercised on the weekend which is unheard for me on both counts. oh well better than nothing.

Due to our love QLD weather this week I have been unable to go for walks but reading this blog on last weeks blog hop gave me some inspiration to do some at home exercise in the form of exercise classes on the TV. I did my first one yesterday which was a hand weights class and my arms are actually really sore today! I think I will do one tonight as hubbie is out but I think I might have to mute the sound and put some music on as the lovely chap who does the class does come up with some pretty unique phases to get you started like 'somebody give us some band aids as we gonna get cut'! YES I kid you not.

I have never done at home workouts before but I do remember when my brothers and I were little imitating mum doing her Jane Fonda videos until my dad 'accidently' tape over it with a footy game. man did he get into trouble....

Rainy day inspiration

I posted yesterday about being inspired to fit into old clothes through my spring cleaning, which I feel was a little shallow, ha um not! looking good in nice clothes is very very important, but I would like to share what is the main inspiration for me to finally get my piggy issues in order and shed the kilos I am currently carrying.

As I have posted about before growing up and into my twenties I never had a problem with my weight as I basically ate whatever I liked and still stayed the same. I remember just before my first day of work after finishing uni my mum promised me that she would take me shopping for some 'key' work outfits. I remember being so excited of going into Country Road and trying on some work linen dresses that I thought would go really well with some pewter satin pumps (this was the early 90's after all!) and i tried on a size 8 dress which looked stupid as it was so baggy! Luckily for me, my mum was great sewer and took it in for me and I looked and felt great on my big first day.

Now I am not writing this to boast (to all the 3 people that read this!)but really just to hash it out in my head. I do really feel for people when I read about them being overweight even as a child and the battle has been a lifelong one, but what happens when people who have been previously slim most of their lives and eat whatever they wanted to becoming obese like I am now?? In a way our struggles are the same as we have eaten badly most of our lives and it is only catching up with some of us in recent years as opposed to childhood.

All of my family are overweight apart from one of my brothers who trains and exercises manically (due to a mid life crisis ha ha). My mum has diabetes and my dad late last year was diagnosed as pre diabetic. Both my grandmas were diabetic also. It scares the buggies out of me that I will get it as it truly is a horrible disease and you can die from it if you cant control your weight or what you eat. my mum struggles with it daily.

my mum and dad are away on a cruise for a month at the moment and before they went I spoke to dad about joining weight watchers and wanting to get my weight under control for good as I joined the day they left and I said I hoped that when he got back I would have lost 5% of my body weight and he said I am proud of you. so fingers crossed I make it!

So my inspiration is the above, health and to make my dad proud, obviously besides to be fit and healthy and live a long life for my little peach and husband, but that is a whole other post for another day!

So what is your inspiration??

Spring cleaning has sprung

I know I am a bit late this this spring cleaning lark seeing as it is the middle of September already but I thought better late than never, plus I wanted to kick start my weight loss at the beginning of September and concentrate of that. So now I feel it would be very cathartic to clean out our bulging cupboards. We live in an old Queenslander house in which every room has huge built in cupboards which are stuffed to the gills, largely with my clothes that no longer fit me. My motivation also was to see all of my lovely clothes and inspire me to fit back into them.

After having lived overseas for almost 10 years mainly in the UK, I also worked in New York and Amsterdam for a short time so I have some really really nice european clothes that I swear I will bust a gut (literally!) to fit back into.

Anyone else have some nice clothes that they are dying to fit back into??

Loving this new blog

I am loving reading this new blog I came across from someone else's blog roll (sorry I dont remember which one) Ms Bitch Cakes. She has just gotten to her goal weight and I have not fully read all the previous posts in depth but it appears she has just done a cycle charity race in a tutu type skirt, full make up and a corset!!! She is a glamour girl and I think she is fab and very Dita Von Tesse looking. She is a member of WW in New York and I just love this bloggy business as a little old housewife in surburban Brisbane, Australia can be inspired by a glamour girl in NY getting to her goal weight using WW! Check out the rest of her posts but I particularly liked this one.

Is this bad???

Emily: Andrea, my God! You look so chic.
Andy Sachs: Oh, thanks. You look so thin.
Emily: Really? It's for Paris, I'm on this new diet. Well, I don't eat anything and when I feel like I'm about to faint I eat a cube of cheese. I'm just one stomach flu away from my goal weight.

Poor hubbie has been laid up in bed/toilet due to a bad bout of gastro. truly nasty stuff and has barely eaten anything since Wednesday and looks really skinny as a result. Is it really bad that I am disappointed that I have not caught it from him in a bid to shed kilos quickly?? hha ha I am joking (sort of!!)

I feel like this most days....

The reason I am overweight is because I am sad on the inside and most days I can't show that as I need to function in daily society so I now realise that I have used food to make myself feel better. Obviously I now realise and something I will have to repeat to myself on a daily basis is that it doesn't make me feel better and if anything it will make me feel and look way worse.

I am starting to feel much better due to weight loss this week and I have lost 2% of my body weight. Go me! Just think by christmas I will look and feel so much better.

Weigh in Wednesday

yeay yeay yeay! After my down day yesterday I am back up today as I lost 0.9kgs this week! No time to get complacent but if I manage that each week I will be estatic to say the least. I was even thinking of giving in a no weigh in pass this week as I did not think I would have lost anything. I love WW, even though some of the ladies in our weds meet are know-it-alls I do like going so will keep it up.

Damn you facebook!

why oh why when you are happily skipping along and it's always the small things that just ruin it???

As I have shared my recent crappy struggles with producing a 2nd child and I happy to vent this here and perhaps make me feel better.

Other ladies out there will know how I feel when I tell you when you miscarry babies sometimes it helps to share your struggles and heartbreak with others that are on a similar journey. I have a dear friend who was struggling to produce no#2 as well and I was thrilled when after 12 months she discovered she was pregnant, she recently had this baby and again I was thrilled for her, not so thrilled about when on the day I was meant to pop over to the hospital to visit her I started my 3 miscarriage so I texted her and said I could not make it and proceeded to cry for another week.

I still have not seen my friend as I have explained what has happened and said sorry I was just up to seeing any newborn babies at the moment and I hoped she understood which of course being the gem she is, she did and said we'd catch up when I was up to it. I have been feeling really good this week and was thinking of calling her and say hi and asking to drop by with a gift for the new baby BUT then I logged onto facebook and saw an album she has created with pics of the new baby and pics of the big sister giving the new baby kisses and hugs

(I particularly sob at these). I am so happy for her and feel like a right shithead for behaving this way towards her.

I just HATE feeling like this as it just set me off and blubbered for about an hour and then dropped on the couch and have been feeling pretty shitty since...the good news is that I have not hit the biscuit jar nor choc freddos that are in the house as I know I will just feel worse if I have them, plus I have weight watchers in the morning and I plan to drop the little peach off at kindy early and go for swim for 30 mins before the meeting. so on the upside I am breaking old habits and think I will swear off logging onto facebook for a while. damn you modern media....

I just feel so sad that someone who shared a similar struggle to me has since gotten pregnant and then has a baby to hold in her arms and yet I am still here not holding one and I fear that I never will again and my little peach with grow up an only child. I know that is not so bad but I come from a big family and I want her to have that when she grows up.

I feel like I am being left behind which is how I feel about being overweight too so I guess we all have the same struggle just with different wants......

Feeling inspired

I love this ad that Ali over at The scales say what? posted about a few weeks ago. I have been up at 6am yesterday and today walking for 30 mins! Slow and steady wins the race I say.

Exercise how I loathe thee?

I used to really like exercising when I was slimmer, I especially really liked doing spin classes when I lived in London at our works gym. I am reallllllly struggling to get back into any form of exercising at the moment and yesterday after setting off for a 30 minute walk, which I have been trying to incorporate this week, I actually turned around after 9 mins!!

I was pushing the little peach in a stroller I have borrowed from a friend as ours was packed away long ago. the walk was just so crap as the stroller wheels kept getting stuck on the pavement, it was quite hot and my tummy roll of fat was causing my shorts to push down, so I kept having to stop to pull them back up , plus I also realised that an old exercise bra I dug out of the drawer was waaaaay too small for me now and was digging into my back causing some fat rolls to spill out over the top and wobble as I walked!

Basically I was just not feeling great and if I am being completely honest I was embarrassed to be walking along the road with all the traffic and feeling like people would be driving by gawking at me or just making rude comments. I know people do it.

The other thing is that I was just so damn grumpy yesterday as I wanted to eat biscuits and chocolate like I usually do most afternoons with a cup of sugary tea. booo hooo. I know the first few weeks will be the hardest to break bad habits but damn it sucks...

I heart NY

I am thinking of you on this day of remberance. You are city I adored to visit for work many times. I shall always remember the work mates I lost that day and I will be praying for your families who no doubt still feel your loss each and every day.

How do you measure up?

I decided to look up what a healthy waistline measurement should be as I have been reading about how your waistline measurement is very important is staving off developing diabetes. This is a disease that is really predominant in my family especially in the women as 3 generations before me all developed it in later life - read- menopause. yikes

I forgot to take my measurements last week when I started at WW but I think 0.3 weight loss so far is really going to make a difference.ha but here goes.

Waist 107cm / 42"

Hips 110cm / 43"

Left thigh 70cm / 27.5"

Right thigh 67 / 26"

Left arm 36cm / 14"

Right arm 35 / 13.5"

The guidelines say that a womans waist measurement should be UNDER 80cm. Good grief I have some way to go!!

Some days I feel like this

Obese not the hairy part! Plus look how sad the Orang utan is at having to eat the lunch that is in front of him?? I feel ya pain buddy some days I am the same......

Goals for this week

drink more water

no more energy drinks last weeks FAILED goal

2 pieces of fruit daily

no more than 4 drinks of alcohol

Last weeks goals

replace tea break biscuits with a piece of fruit - currently at least 3-4 a day

drink at least 6 glasses of water a day - currently it is embarrassingly only about 2 or 3!!

bread only once a day- currently some days it is up to 4, 2 toast for b'fast and 2 for lunch sandwich.

Weigh in Wednesday

well not as good as I expected but not as bad either considering my alcohol intake this past week and no exercise to speak of but weight was down 0.3 to 88.3kgs. God not so good for a first week effort but perhaps I will look at this as a slow burner effort as to be honest I have been a member of WW before and I lose big the first 2 weeks then it tapers off and I stop going. I dont think I have ever made it past 1 month of continous weigh ins so I will aim for that achievement and stick with it too and not get too disheartened by small losses. Anything is better than putting it on I guess.

Mummy's little helper

After a weekend filled with fireworks (literally Riverfire 2010 is Brisbane festival of fireworks) and Fathers day on Sunday. I love a good party as much as the next person but it was realllllly hard to stay away from the cheese and biscuit nibbles and watch my wine intake. I think my plan of action in future is that I will always elect to be the designated driver as that will cancel out any wine consumption for me.

I am no major boozer but I have in the past few years gotten into a very bad habit of drinking a bottle of wine over the weekend or even at times drinking almost a whole bottle by myself on a friday night whilst hubbie drinks red wine and we sit at the table after our dinner and chat. I really like this part of our week but I am going to have to cut out the drinking at home part for the time being - boo. At our local park there is a boot camp session held at 7am and I have been a few times but due to excessive wine consumption on the friday night with hubby I stopped setting my alarm and realised the other day that I have not been all year!!!

This saturday I am back!

here it is my before shot......

This was taken last Christmas day by our little munchkin and my husbands iphone. He did not show me this as I only came across it downloaded onto his computer (I know why he didn't!) and I have cried buckets over this photo. It breaks my heart that this is what I look like to my little girl and how sad I look on Christmas day which is usually a day I adore!! I can count on one hand the number of photos I have of special occasions with her.....makes me so sad.

I was in two minds of putting this photo on here as I hope no one I know will ever read this but I feel I must in order to start moving on and sorting my weight issue out. ok I have chickened out and blurred out my face but still anyone I know will recognice me anyway, as I am the only stupid person I know that wears all black clothing including a black cardigan on Christmas Day in Queensland when it is almost 40 degrees!!!!

It's official dark chocolate is not good for you

Since joining weight watchers this week and downloading a points application for my iphone and I have been checking the labels of the usual things I buy like cereals, cheese and biscuits. I was surprised at a few of them lets just say.

Well once a week I shop at Aldi to get a few basics and most weeks I get one of their dark chocolate mousses. well I was not kidding myself in thinking that choc mousse was good for me but I did not think it was as bad as the label stated it was. 13 POINTS!!! one little measely cup of dark choc mousse is almost 3/4 of my daily allowance....blimey. I used to giggle as I put it in my trolley that I will get the dark choc one for the antioxidants.....yes really I did....sad..yeah I used to giggle as I bent over to put it in my trolley almost wincing in pain as my pants were cutting into my fat stomach...yeah I should have giggling....um not.

Lets face it when you buy products that you know are not good for you, you say oh tomorrow I will be better and this is the last I am ever going to buy this choc mousse/mini toblerone/M&M's but of course I was back doing the same thing again the next day with something different.This is why I am glad I have joined WW as it does make you realise why you are fat in the first place with huge portion sizes and also how bad food really does account for why you eat over your daily recommended intake.

the lady at the registration desk at WW yesterday said to a lady in front of me who had returned after a few months break ' dont fret it has taken you months to come back as you will be glad you joined now by Christmas day wont you?' and it is true as these last few days I have been kicking myself that I did not join back in June and exercised and dieted during winter so now spring is here I would have been much skinnier, but I have to remove this negative thought and think of that lady's comment.

Yikey Crikey Weigh In wednesday!!

(ps this is my last cake picture for my blog - this is my big farewell to badness!!)

Had the big weigh in at WW today and sadly it was more than I thought. 88.6kgs is my official starting weight so instead of the 15kgs I thought I had to lose to get to my healthy body weight of 66kgs it is now 22kgs!!!!!! fffffffaaaaaarrrrrrrrr ouuuuuuutttttt!

Just say NO!

We had a family birthday dinner on Sunday night. It was lovely and I made sure I did not overeat too much and I had only 1 glass of wine which is unheard for me! ha

Even though my waistline may not be reflective of this but I am not really a dessert person, never have been really which is why I have managed to stay relatively slim for a good 29 years. I am just not into cakes, slice or pies, I will have dessert if it involves a chocolate something but otherwise I usually just say no. This usually invokes ALOT of comments from my family ' oh go on' or 'I just cut you a very small piece' or recently my new sister on law who loves to bake gets offended when I turn down her latest creation and pouts until I give in or at times I do not, but I did on Sunday night and I have regretted it ever since.

How do you say no to well meaning friends and family is my question for this week? I picked up the latest issue of weight watchers on the weekend and it had an article all about how relationships change once you start to change your eating habits or lose weight. I thought to myself 'what crap' but then a day later I can see what the article was saying. How ever well meaning friends or family are they are just trying to make themselves feel better when really they should be skipping the dessert also not to mention the scoop of ice cream and dollop of double cream to go along with it.

I think the tip is just to stay strong and say no thanks or even leave the table to visit the bathroom or kitchen until all of the servings are given out. I know the intention of weight watchers is that you can have treats at times as long as you stay within your daily allowance but you cannot follow up treats when you have had a creamy soup and roast beef dinner with a glass of wine!! Even I know that.

I love my family but not their eating habits...

Goal for weight loss

Besides wanting to get healthy to have another child, if it is not to be in the coming summer months ahead I would love to at least look half way decent on the beach, rather than just hiding in a black swimmers and black shorts and sitting on a towel at the beach whilst my hubbie plays in the water with our little munchkin.

I was at David Jones the other day and saw all the lovely new swimwear and the new range fomr Megan Gale called Isola caught my eye. really gorgeous colours and patterns. plus the one pieces were really flattering with ruched front or a cute ruffle at the bust.

my fav is the multi coloured floral one with the ruffle front. swimwear here I come :-)